Day Zero

DAY ZERO

APRIL 26, 2013

WELL, HERE IT IS: TIME FOR SOMETHING NEW. I’M STUCK IN A RUT, PHYSICALLY. SPIRITUALLY, I’M GROWING…BUT, MORE ON THAT LATER. I AM 23 YEARS OLD. I AM A YOUTH MINISTER, MOMMY OF A BEAUTIFUL ONE YEAR OLD, NOAH, AND A WIFE. I AM PREPARING TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. I AM ALSO EXHAUSTED, IN PAIN, AND EXCITED. I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH JOINT AND BACK PAIN SINCE I WAS 15 YEARS OLD, PROBABLY EARLIER, BUT THIS IS WHEN IT GOT BAD ENOUGH TO GO SEE A DOCTOR. I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED AND REDIAGNOSED WITH ALL SORTS OF STUFF. THE DIAGNOSIS THAT HAS STUCK WITH ME THE LONGEST has been FIBROMYALGIA. I ALSO HAVE four SLIPPED DISCS IN MY BACK. I’M NOT RECORDING ALL THIS FOR  PITY’s sake, BUT RATHER, I HAVE HIGH HOPES THAT IN THE NEXT 5 WEEKS, MY LIFE WILL BE MUCH DIFFERENT. I AM RELINQUISHING A PART OF MYSELF THAT I HAVE YET TO HAND OVER TO GOD: MY HEALTH. WE FIGHT OVER THAT A LOT. HE KNOWS WHAT I NEED AND I FEEL LIKE HE HAS GIVEN ME THE RESOURCES AND TOOLS TO PRACTICE MY SELF CONTROL, PATIENCE, AND TRUST. I KNOW IT IS GOING TO BE HARD, BUT I HAVE A PLAN. WANNA HEAR? I’M GUESSING SO IF YOU’VE MADE IT THIS FAR IN MY MINI-BIOGRAPHY:

1.     START GOING TO CONFESSION ONCE A WEEK AND ATTEND DAILY MASS AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK…CHECK. STARTED THIs several weeks ago. I HAVE ISSUES WITH MY SELF IMAGE and I WANT TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF THAT I AM HOLY AND GOOD. NOT FROM ANY OF MY OWN DOING, RATHER, BECAUSE AS IT SAYS IN 2 CORINTHIANS 5:17, “SO WHOEVER IS IN CHRIST IS A NEW CREATION: THE OLD THINGS HAVE PASSED AWAY; BEHOLD, NEW THINGS HAVE COME.” I AM HIS NEW CREATION. HE HAS BEEN WORKING ON ME FOR SO LONG! HE ALSO THINKS THE WORLD OF ME. GOD, WHO MADE THE WHOLE WORLD THINKS I’M ALL THAT AND A BAG OF CHIPS! HE SINGS OF HIS ABOUNDING LOVE FOR ME, TELLING ME THINGS in song of songs, chapter 4, LIKE, “YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY, MY FRIEND, THERE IS NO FLAW IN YOU!” AND “HOW BEAUTIFUL IS YOUR LOVE, MY SISTER, MY BRIDE, HOW MUCH BETTER IS YOUR LOVE THAN WINE…” BLUSHING AIN’T GOT NOTHIN’ ON HOW I FEEL WHEN I REALLY THINK ABOUT THIS. I SEE SO MANY FLAWS, HE SEES BEAUTY. I LOVE WINE, HE LOVES MY LOVE FOR HIM EVEN MORE…THAT IS POWERFUL STUFF RIGHT THERE! HE IS DRUNK ON MY LOVE MORE THAN I AM ON HIS, WHICH IS REALLY JUST MIND BOGGLING. KEEPING A CLEAN AND PURE HEART THROUGH THE HOLY SACRAMENTS OF RECONCILIATION AND COMMUNION WILL HELP ME TO STAY PURE INSIDE AND OUT AND BE MY BEST FOR HIM.

2.    BEGIN MY 30 DAY REGIMEN OF ISAGENIX AND RELINQUISH ALL OF THE PHYSICAL REMNANTS OF MY GLUTTONY AND BREWING A BABY IN THIS FLABBY BELLY OF MINE…AKA, THIS 30 POUNDS THAT JUST INSISTS IT CAN’T DO MAGIC AND JUST PULL A DISAPPEARING ACT! WHERE IS HOUDINI WHEN YOU NEED HIM, HUH? I’M EXCITED AND NERVOUS. I’M NOT AT ALL A GEMICKS PERSON, BUT I LIKE THAT ISA IS MEANT TO HELP ME WITH MORE THAN JUST WEIGHT LOSS. I’M PRAYING IT WILL HELP WITH MY PHYSICAL PAIN AND SLEEPING HABITS ALSO. TODAY, I’M FULL OF PAIN AND STILL COMPLETELY EXHAUSTED. THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE IN TOMORROW.

3.     BEGIN MY CONSECRATION TO OUR BLESSED MOTHER! MORE ON THIS SONDAY.

4.    BECOME A BETTER WOMAN FOR GOD, MY HUBBY, MY SON, MY FUTURE CHILDREN, MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, AND MINISTRY.

5.     BE AWESOME.

 

WELL FRIENDS, I THINK THAT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ONE DAY: MORE TO COME FOR THE NEXT 35 OR SO DAYS…MAYBE EVEN MORE AFTER THAT. I GUESS WE’LL JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE.

Read more on these scriptures on www.usccb.org by clicking these links: 2 Corinthians 5 or Song of Songs 4